You may or may not have noticed that I’ve been away for a bit. I’ve been absent from Twitter, haven’t kept up with my Reader and sat back as the unread messages in my email inbox steadily multiplied. I had a lot going on this month so I had no other choice but to sit back and allow some things in my life to get ahead of me.
Ordinarily I like to keep up with things. I begin getting nervous if I feel like I’m getting behind in anything. If I perceive the possibility in any given week that I may not get everything done that needs to it makes my chest tighten a little and I begin to get all anxious inside. Some of you may be rolling your eyes at me, a self-professed control freak, while others are nodding in agreement, but whatever your reaction please understand that for me, letting go of things takes courage.
Under no circumstances do I willingly allow things to fall behind. I must be forced to step back as I wring my hands, wondering if everything I hold on to so tightly will dissolve into nothing without me. I realize how this makes me sound – self-centered, truly it is not a healthy attitude and one I continually submit to God, but I’m trying to be honest here. Now for the good news – I should really know better by now because each time I’m forced to take that step back I’m greeted with an unanticipated side effect – a clear head. I’m able to come back to each thing with new-found clarity; a new purpose, goal or idea that excites me.
- I was away from my husband for 6 days and you all know from his trip to Peru how well I deal with that. I came home to him wanting to be a better wife.
- I was away from my blog, writing, and all to do with that for a week, but ended up leaving it alone for over 2 weeks. I’m back now and I can’t wait to pick things up again. I love this blog. You’re all still reading, right?
- I was away from my house and coming and going so much that I got behind on my housework. Oh do I hate that. I’m home now and tackling things in a sensible manner, not an all-or-nothing frenzy. I can’t wait to make my home refreshing again.
I think there are a lot of things in life that can benefit from taking a step back – finances, jobs, relationships, ministries. Sometimes we (I) just need a breather, a moment to catch our breath and regain that beautiful perspective that makes things right. I’m grateful for my step back. I think it renewed my outlook in a healthy way. I’m looking forward to what’s ahead for my little space that you all honor me by reading.
Why I do what I do ~ I made strawberry Jell-O for the girls today. After they woke from their naps I told them I had made it and they were all excited. One of my nieces yelled, “We’re having Yellow!”
photo credit: Search Engine People Blog
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I, for one, definitely missed you. I actually thought about you the other day, after not seeing your usual posts for a few days, and said a little prayer, hoping you were doing well.
You love your blog, so do all your readers! Thanks for putting out such great material! You really do an awesome job.
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It’s nice to regroup every now and again. My week is very busy and I missed posting a Tuesdays Unwrapped and reading through the other posts. I really look forward to this each week, but just need to be focusing elsewhere for right this minute.
Don’t you love kids? We are trying to tackle the world and so much joy is found in a bowl of jello.
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